My Dreams

      Ever asked by someone about your dreams??? Don't share with me here. Rather let me share mine with you :-).

      I remembered few instances in my life when I've been asked about my dreams...

      When my parents asked, I told them I don't know. Then, they suggested me few of it. Those suggestion wasn't suit me anyway.

      When I share with my siblings, I told them I rather travel around the world with my backpack. Sound adventurous and exciting??? Yes, but deep in my heart, I know I can't do that right now due to many reasons.

      When teachers asked this questions, I'll just simply replied with silly answers such as doctors, lawyers and etc which the teachers will be glad to hear from me.

      So, what exactly is my dreams???

      As I grow older and older (though I'm not that old), I have many dreams that hasn't come to reality yet.

a) Travel around the world - Places that I wish to visit/stay are Maldives, Puerto Rico, Sweden, and those country with beautiful sea/beach scenery.

b) Skilled musician - Not necessary to be a famous one, but at least I can play my favorite music piece with satisfaction and achievement. I always wanted to play piano, but don't have the chance to do so. I can play guitar with basic chords and basic skills only. I wish I can play more skillful. I desired to learn more in Spanish music. Those rhythms and beats is really exciting and romantic too.

c) Have my dream house - The house must have a big swimming pool and I can always float on water while relax my mind. I like swimming a lot since young. And I always envy people if their house/condominium got swimming pool.

d) I would like to learn many foreign language too. I am learning Japanese right now, but I prefer Spanish/Mexican language more. Then, I wish to learn some swedish, french and german language...

      That's all??? No. I still have many dreams. Just that those written here is on my top 10 list. Haha...

      I hope I can achieve all my top 10 list dreams asap!!!!

My Identity...

     I can't remember since when people kept assume me as non-Chinese. I tried to recall and I guessed it should be when I was 11 years old. Why this bothering me?

     Well, again, another colleague of mine told me this: "Natalie, I thought you are a Filipino until the other day when I heard you speak Mandarin/Chinese, I was so surprise of that!" When I heard this, I almost fainted!!! Then, I told her that she's the 2nd person in the company that told me this. We're laughing and then she added that she believes there might be more staff still think I'm a Filipino!!! Then, I said, "do I have to tell everyone loudly that I'm a Chinese?" Again, we laughed out loud. Haha... :D

     I'm not against any race, just that I hope others will see my real identity as a Chinese. Anyway, it's quite fun when people mistakenly of our original identity!!!

Stress in work

     Last Friday, I've been assigned to new system in my office. It's a huge system and I'll be trained to master it. In other words, I'll become the person-in-charge (PIC) of it if got new requirements or bugs! Well, they don't expect I become master of the new system immediately. Hahaha.:D

     First, I have to modify existing codes to meet new requirements. Wow, guess how many lines of code in it. It's about 7K plus lines of code in it. Fuyoh, that's terrible and horrible!!! But after I think through, it's time for me to take up new challenge at work!


     In this modify assignment, I've given 8 working days to complete it. Today is the 5th day! Yet, I'm kinda blur about the code still! I felt terribly stress! Followed by stress, I felt bad and got long face on my face. I'm not sure other colleagues noticed that or not. I knew I can't proceed to do my work in such mood, so, I skipped lunch and listen to songs. At one point, I felt I really going to burst, but some thoughts flow in my mind and a conversion with Cindy's prompted my heart! Wow, it's really timely and I know it's from God.


     Firstly, I wrote down what I feel at that moment (actually is typing!) and my mood is getting better. Then, I started to pray while I typed. I even recorded down my needs and asking Jesus for helps, wisdoms and strength to help me overcome this situation. Suddenly, a conversion with Cindy prompted me. It's about peace. She ever shared this peace that she learnt during last year Thai Camp with me while I was still in India. Being reminded of peace and knowing that struggles and tough times is sometimes a must to let me grow and mature! And peace shoud come from the Lord and truly put trust and faith in Him that He will make things perfect in right timing!


     I felt more calm and better after praying. Then, God sent an angel to me, my Form Six best friend, who replied my email and concern about my situation!

     Peace is indeed with me after that, so, now I have to work out my faith by putting effort to study and explore the coding! Some update, I managed to understand the code more! I know I need more time to learn it. I'll push myself to do it fast, but if I couldn't, I'll face it and bear the consequences and improve next time!


     So, guys and gals, please keep me in prayers so that I can complete the tasks on time without cancel my trip to Kuching end of July!!! Thanks!!!